Who do you need to forgive?
Oct. 12th, 2005 10:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
singindemonhqI'm not sure if I understand the question. Maybe it's one of those human things. Looking back - sure, in a way I'm a kind of exile, but Hell, I developed a talent that can bring whole cities to ruin! If I'd been more average, the supporting cast type, I wouldn't have wanted someone like me around, either!
Sure my family went along with sending me away, but that's the Lore. There's not much choice about obeying that. The alternatives ain't something I'd want to go into, right now. I was trained to enjoy my role, anyway. Maybe they were too.
All through my life it looked as though I made choices but, looking back - when you can see the patterns it looks as though it was all mapped out. I got pressured this way, pulled that way - no choices, just follow the script.
Sure, you can play might-have-beens, if this hadn't happened, if that had got done on schedule - but looking back, the more you know about what was really going on with you yourself, the real reasons you did it, the fewer real choices you can see. I guess it's like that for everyone. That way there's not so much to forgive, except maybe the Powers and yourself, of course. That ain't always so easy.
I know humans have trouble with forgiveness. They have this saying, "Forgive and forget." Yeah, right. A lot of them - maybe all of them, can't forgive unless they do forget.
Forgetting is a funny mechanism, too. Whatever it is doesn't really go away. It gets tucked into some deep level, like a prisoner in a cell - except that, for some of them, they can't get into the cell themselves but the prisoner can reach out and pull their strings. Those who can't remember history are condemned to repeat it. If they can get that prisoner out they can maybe reason with him. Otherwise, dance puppet, dance - and some of them end up going out in a real blaze of glory.
No, forgiving ain't my schtick. Most of my customers ain't any good at it - and me? I ain't never been sure if I do it right.
Muse; Sweet the Singing Demon.
Fandom; BTVS.
Words; 373.
Sure my family went along with sending me away, but that's the Lore. There's not much choice about obeying that. The alternatives ain't something I'd want to go into, right now. I was trained to enjoy my role, anyway. Maybe they were too.
All through my life it looked as though I made choices but, looking back - when you can see the patterns it looks as though it was all mapped out. I got pressured this way, pulled that way - no choices, just follow the script.
Sure, you can play might-have-beens, if this hadn't happened, if that had got done on schedule - but looking back, the more you know about what was really going on with you yourself, the real reasons you did it, the fewer real choices you can see. I guess it's like that for everyone. That way there's not so much to forgive, except maybe the Powers
I know humans have trouble with forgiveness. They have this saying, "Forgive and forget." Yeah, right. A lot of them - maybe all of them, can't forgive unless they do forget.
Forgetting is a funny mechanism, too. Whatever it is doesn't really go away. It gets tucked into some deep level, like a prisoner in a cell - except that, for some of them, they can't get into the cell themselves but the prisoner can reach out and pull their strings. Those who can't remember history are condemned to repeat it. If they can get that prisoner out they can maybe reason with him. Otherwise, dance puppet, dance - and some of them end up going out in a real blaze of glory.
No, forgiving ain't my schtick. Most of my customers ain't any good at it - and me? I ain't never been sure if I do it right.
Muse; Sweet the Singing Demon.
Fandom; BTVS.
Words; 373.
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