Back at last
Jun. 30th, 2003 10:34 pmFriday 27th
I smoked in fairly late in the day, tired, but glad to be back. Then I had to give Erynne the news.
It's just as well that she does trust me, I was so relieved that she wouldn't start worrying about this dimension's version of her family that I'm sure it showed. I wish I'd found out something about Lamia, though.
I smoked in fairly late in the day, tired, but glad to be back. Then I had to give Erynne the news.
It's just as well that she does trust me, I was so relieved that she wouldn't start worrying about this dimension's version of her family that I'm sure it showed. I wish I'd found out something about Lamia, though.
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Date: 2003-07-03 12:45 pm (UTC)*relaxes as she sees you*
*smiles happily, coming over to sit down*
Hi! Well, no horrorshows in my sleep...but I
missed you when I woke up.
*Puts arms around you, looking up
into your eyes*
How was it--did you find out anything?
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Date: 2003-07-03 12:50 pm (UTC)I'm so glad to be back... This isn't
our dimensionthe America you came from. We don't belong here. The good news is that I couldn't find any equivalent of your family here. Not any of the people you told me about. You don't have to worry about anyone here.The bad news is that I couldn't find out anything about a Lamia. We know she can reach here - she touched your mind while you slept - but they don't know of her...
*holds you tightly again* It was too much like when I was first in Sunnydale...
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Date: 2003-07-03 12:53 pm (UTC)*kisses you, then moves back slightly to see
your face*
When you were first in Sunnydale?...what happened,
love? You look like you've seen a few old nightmares
of your own.
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Date: 2003-07-03 12:58 pm (UTC)classify Earth as a Helldimension and we get hazard
bonuses for Sunnydale. I had to ....
Ok ... yes ... it wasn't my favorite few months.... I
really did go to Hell to make a few contacts in that town - I mean in Sunnydale - but remind me to tell you about Hystalgia some time...
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:01 pm (UTC)Earth is your people's version of hell,
and someone made you spend months here
alone? Oh,hon. And then we get dragged back
here from Arkadia....I wish you'd said something
before now!
You must miss your home like crazy...Why didn't
you just tell your...superiors? where they
could go? Or make them send you some help?
Well, if this dimension's clear of anyone we need
to worry about, then you don't have to
take off again. And you won't be left alone from now on if I have anything to say about it, in any
dimension!
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:12 pm (UTC)to send help? The portals to my dimension failed - I
lost contact with them back then. I thought it was
because the computer was down, but when I got it fixed
there was still nothing.
There wasn't anything I could do - except try to cope
around Sunnydale. Those people you call my friends -
well, I call some of them friends, too, but there are
neighbors where I come from who'd think they were
like ... well ...legendary monsters ... and Sunnydale gets it all... Hell-gods and slayers and all sorts.
This place is different and it was almost like
starting again, alone, and any mistake could be ...
*Holds you with cheek against your hair, eyes
closed...*
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:15 pm (UTC)It's not the same, Sweet. You do have friends
here; Astraeia, Grant, Sam, and Percy...your
friend the Slayer...and, there's me.
No matter what happens--
and you'll have someone to watch your back,
if you ever need.
I love you and I'm not going anywhere...
*shifts position, touches your cheek*
*leaves one arm wrapped around you*
*kisses your eyelids softly*
...see?
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:28 pm (UTC)Oh yes, I see ... and now there's you - and you make it all worth it. You're worth anything...
You know, most of them may not have realised what it was like for me to be there alone. I've been doing the gigs for a looong time.
*Starts to sing very softly, still holding you...*
I make the songs
For others to sing
Everyone knows
I don't feel a thing,
I live my life,
Going away,
There's a whole repertoire
Of what I don't say,
I lived my life in passing,
Usually I'm there for a day,
They sing of shames and sorrows,
Things they just wouldn't say,
That's what I hear,
life on earth just seemed drear,
Then I was trapped
in a world I didn't chose,
Only surviving,
still too much to lose,
And along the way,
Somehow it all turned grey.
Now something's so right,
The world reflects your delight,
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:34 pm (UTC)When you're silent
When you sing
You've seen what I can be
--kiss or kill,
everything--
That others just can't bear
Been my friend as well as lover
When they refused to care....
You dance and I can't catch my breath
For watching you
My heart's in that moment--
So what else can I do?
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:43 pm (UTC)I need you there,
you've seen what I can be,
kiss or kill,
what others just can't bear,
Been my friend as well as lover
When they refused to care....
Though I like your smile,
That's the smallest part of what this is,
and I like your style,
that's a bigger part of what this is,
It's the joy you share,
That means that I need you there,
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:44 pm (UTC)your easy grace
Your laugh that warms
The loneliest place,
When I first heard your voice
I hoped you'd stay awhile
But now I've come to know
That I've made another choice...
...to hold you in my heart
and never let you go
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:51 pm (UTC)Everything seems new,
Sometimes it's a dream come true,
I just want you close,
With the joy you take,
Lighting up each move you make,
Now my hearts not free,
I want you close to me,
Now I need you so,
I'd never let you go.
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Date: 2003-07-03 01:52 pm (UTC)And given away
Because without you
My life would be nothing
--cold,dusty gray...
We are bound, together,
Neither completely free
But the joy and wonder
Being close to you gives me--
Makes any loss worth what I've found...
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Date: 2003-07-03 02:07 pm (UTC)And given away,
Because without you,
My life would be grey
Like blowing dust,
On the winds of a sunless sea …
We are bound together,
Neither can now be free
But the joy and wonder,
Being close to you brings me
Makes any loss worth what I’ve found,
I need you to be around
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Date: 2003-07-03 07:45 pm (UTC)I'll stand with you,
Share all that I am,
Without holding back
If you're with me
And can give the same
I won't say I lack
Or regret any loss....
*sighs happily*
*lays her head on your chest*
You're worth anything to me too, Sweet. Never
doubt that.
You were right about something else, too. We don't
belong here. And we aren't needed here, either
--we may be back in our 'original' reality.
If you want us to do the marriage ceremony in this
Sunnydale, so those who are your friends
can be present or celebrate with us, of course we
can...but after that...we should say our goodbyes
and start trying to get back to our Earth.
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Date: 2003-07-03 10:13 pm (UTC)No, marriage by talisman is ... kind of private ...
*Starts to become more alert.*
I'm not too happy about doing that here. It's not our reality, and - when we were at Willy's place, I know you said there were no twins of the people who were wished over. I'm not so sure that's right...
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Date: 2003-07-03 10:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-07-04 12:12 am (UTC)Anyway, I thought you wanted the kind of wedding they do in these dimensions...
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Date: 2003-07-04 12:18 am (UTC)Like I said, Sweet,I'm not the girl next door--
Yes,my family throw parties for newlyweds that
would be right up there with the Countess' gala,
but we have our own version of the ceremony
itself. Does involve some formalities--
more the Wiccan kind for my clan, than 'Traditional
Walk Down The Aisle' sort of thing.
We'd just need someone who's authorized
to perform legal marriages,and I have a couple
friends back home who could do it.
After that, it's "go and partaaaay!"
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Date: 2003-07-04 12:45 am (UTC)Aaahh, now I'm all for partying.....
*Moving enough to look at you*
But don't you want all that? The wedding stuff? If you do... *lets voice trail off*
There is one thing, though, I know you have the talisman, but they don't understand that, here. In this dimension - shouldn't you have a ring as well?
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Date: 2003-07-04 12:46 am (UTC)Bronze were being so...crude...because they
figured what's between us wasn't that
serious. "Real" to them does mean an engagement
or wedding ring...
*hesitates* Well, there's a jewelry store in
town, or there was--do you want to go with
me and we could pick one out?
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Date: 2003-07-04 12:52 am (UTC)That place was kinda small, though. Did they stock enough good stuff? I'd like the ring to really show up, you know? Or would a big one be in your way, or snag on things?
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Date: 2003-07-04 12:56 am (UTC)*chuckles* When it comes to wedding rings, Sweet,
at least for most women I know, there is no
such thing as "too big" or fancy.
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Date: 2003-07-04 12:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-07-04 01:00 am (UTC)even--I don't think they close for an hour or so.
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Date: 2003-07-04 01:05 am (UTC)Why did we give Grant back his car so quickly? Maybe I should ask him to loan it to us again? I should make some more portal CDRs, too, then we could have the wedding where-ever and still have guests.
*Stands and stretches, grinning* But I have some plans for partying anyway - real soon...
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Date: 2003-07-04 01:08 am (UTC)Oh yeah?...I bet you do...*laughs*
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Date: 2003-07-04 01:09 am (UTC)